melicacy

i’ve been sleeping around 5am everyday
i have a pimple that’s taking forever to heal
i’ve been baking chicken & potatoes <3
i haven’t touched any homework till date
i still hate my mother

and i hate xmas.

mom’s going to m’sia till coming tuesday (i think KL?)
dad’s going penang on 30 Oct
why don’t they ever travel together..
my mom’s the hilton hotel fussy traveller while my dad’s the adventurous simplicity walker
how’d they end up getting married in the first place?!
now they’re too old to regret and re-marry anyway so they’re stuck with each other (lol -_-)

i don’t understand why my mom loves staying at hilton hotel (EVEN IN MALAYSIA?!?!)
i have to “suffer” with budget accommodation for all my trips, still feeling the pain, and she enjoy her luxurious accommodation. and then get stingy with me and complains i spend too much money. F U C K.

anyhows i just ordered $200 worth of biscuits online :X haha new addition to my junkfood area. kill me please.
and i’m contemplating ordering ice cream because lugging tubs of ice cream home each grocery trip is draining all my energy & making me skinnier than i already am.

okay i’m rattling on because it’s 3.33AM and i can’t friggin sleep. watching AFC isn’t helping. i’m inspired to cook just watching those shows.

ohhhhhh and someone commented that my cheeks are chubbier
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH whatever okay i can’t help that everything i eat goes to my face instead of my skinny-boney body.

period.

i think i might have lost a kilo or two, by just rushing work at the last minute throughout the weekend.
and however heavy my eyelids, they can’t be any heavier than my eye bags.

(how many times have i yawned already….?????????)

here’s the amateurish crap that i did throughout the weekend (yeah the one i was doing in my nest)

i’m just disappointed that i didn’t spend much thoughts on it. and the fact that i can’t be bothered to use other materials but plain old vanguard sheets (i’m cheapo and lazy okay fine)

and guess how many tubes of UHU glue i’ve used on it!
4 friggin tubes. (i can’t believe it either.) so it totals up to $16 purely on glue.

hey glue sniffers, you should just quit and pass me some of your glue yo.

-i dislike long nails with extravagant manicure. (i mean, what’s the point when it’s gonna come off in no time, and you’ll have difficulty typing or whatsoever! AND THEY COLLECT GERMS AND DIRT)
-i haven’t had a haircut in 2 years. (i just couldn’t be bothered?)
-i like my chicken 90% cooked, with a hint of bloody raw. (because i like them tender and i HATEEEEEE overcooked chicken)
-just as i like my steak medium rare. (that’s pretty damn common anyway)
-i have purchased 7 pairs of shoes in less than a month.

okay i am off to trim my (already)short nails.

when my mom sent me to school
she asked why i was wearing so many layers when its pretty warm out there
i said my school has the winter air con
she said i should try to adapt to it instead of fighting it
i replied the more i shiver the more i’m sure going to become skinny boney

bahhh.

oh.
need someone to teach me how to update twitter using my cellphone.
anyone?

i’ve lost count of the number of times i changed the layout of my room.

why can’t i stick to one… something.. and not get tired of it ever?

my big tee caught fire in the kitchen (fire was too huge, and i was leaning over to grab some stuff) it was a loose tee so thank god i didn’t get burnt.
i shook the fire off.
there’s a burnt hole in the tee now. (lol?)

- after tonight’s american idol show, i truly am impressed by adam.
- i’m so sick of lil’rounds already. and scott.
- michael’s in such a dangerous position. i like him as a person, but definitely don’t think he has any star qualities.
- i missed the first 3 performances, so i can’t really judge overall.
- oh, the LONGGGGG and frequent tv commercial breaks on star world annoys the shit outta me

- i like watching “The Seventh Day” on ch55 only because of the cutie Jack and the couple jia-en & zhiying.
- i hate sasa. she’s so annoying.
- i’d rather have don with jessie instead. sasa’s poor, has no class, annoying and uglier. why her?

- i’m aiming to get a wide angle lens soon. preferably 10-20mm, but keeping my options open. (price IS a factor)

- i can’t wait to… finally die.

lol i’m serious, like get my fuckin life done and over with.

i like my lover meaty (:

eat more! (though i know you can never beat me! teehee i have an unbelievable appetite)

my favorite’s danny gokey! right from the very beginning (:
i’m lovin’ anoop too! as long as he sings something sentimental.
i love jorge but he got out :(
i admire adam for his unique singing and huge vocal range. he sure can sing, but i ain’t that big a fan.
allison just reminds me alot of miley cyrus, totally better than miley, outsings her, but i don’t hope she goes much further. not a fan.
i can’t wait for alexis grace to get out.
i hope megan stays longer than lil rounds although lil’ rounds can sing better than megan. lil rounds resembles fantasia much? but i ain’t a fan of either anyway.
urm scott… he’s still in the running prolly cus he’s blind. and can sing okay. i ain’t a fan.
michael.. don’t like his voice and country style but i like his humbleness and attitude. but he’s gonna get out soon. :\ i’d rather he stay longer than megan tho.
matt’s.. good, but i still prefer danny gokey over matt. not a fan.
so who’s your favorite?

i reminisce.
i miss.

list;

note: take pictures from old-school photobooths like old times (:

introducing the super adorable heepo

sheeps and heepos and giruffs and froggies and all the cutie bahbahbeepbeep thingies are so cute xD

okay so its me and my cute(retarded) tee shirt xD

anyone has art supplies that you don’t use anymore please donate xD
i’m broke, bored and itching for crafts!

so how my day went tooday.
went to the library at hougang mall, then to cold storage at compasspoint
spent $25 on groceries (:
considering the fact that when my mom takes me to grocery shopping i’d spend a whopping $100 odd on just stocking up on junkfoods. so i’m proud of myself for being so thrifty today (:

but other than that i spent about $50 today all in all.
(oh, did i mention i’m not working now? :S)

wind’s blowing scary now.
still having problems sleeping

drizzling now.

i like rain.

stomach pain…………

must be all that crap i ate..
>:(

0313 A.M.

yes, insomnia is back.
sleep fasting starts till coma befalls.

you, me and dupree on hbo hits now.
not really entertaining right now.

stomach pain.

):

i feel damn moody.

flu’s gotten worse..

i’m sooo moooodddyyyyy…

i just wanna have a shoulder to lean on now.. right this instance.

):

@ hendrick’s:

two more pics updated at cafe del mar post (Click on picture to go directly to that post or just scroll down to that post)

@ mos:

@ starbucks:

@ work with my favourite crystal (click for full picture!)

hee okay one random picture:

dental on friday! mmm what color should i put next.

i <3 sun
i <\3 freshair
i <3 aircon
i <\3 fan
i <3 milk
i <\3 diarrhea
i <3 sun tanning
i <\3 sand
i <3 xiany!
i <\3 missing her! =P

wokay i’m so sleepyyyyyy buh-byeeeeeee

(i don’t know why you wanna know the password. no sexy pictures here. just rants.)

22-07-2007
5 a.m
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-the only thing i missed about mos… mr big man!
heeeheee he remembers me still! after MIA-ing for so long :D :D :D
- i’m feeling so.. lesbian right now.
(and please do not relate that to lesbian sex because it totally turns me off)
i just can’t stop thinking about her..
- i fell outside mos (AGAIN) this’s the FORTH TIME. kill me please.
- okay i’m sooo whining right now but… SO PAINNNNNNNN :(
- i love mango san (: cute new hairdo!
- had a great meihui-day in the morning! (i can’t believe i could survive on such little sleep :DDDD) they look so cute doing their monkey business i swear!
- i need to chaotah more…. i’m getting fairer (again) rain is - i had chicken pies (3) and sugar rolls (2), both from POLAR. i had cheesecakes. (kill me please) also, i had leftover beehoon from the fridge (I HAD COLD FOOD) omg i think alcohol makes one really hungry. i mean, i never used to even eat re-heated food. and now i'm actually eating cold food.
- bumped into old friends (: makes me happy..
- i miss xiany
- i miss gracie! her birthday is coming!!
- bibi pee-ed all over the living room because my maid was too lazy to wake up to open her "toilet area" for her when she barked. serve her right for having more to clean up when she finally wakes up :P
(bibi is so damn cute i tell ya. she barks at my maid's room when she nidda go to her toilet which is locked to prevent roachies from entering our place. LMAO)
- i'm awfully tempted to get a chin job. ($2.5k)
- i was feeling so emotional when i watched the rain
- my room's in a really bad mess. maybe i should take a video. you'll flip i swear.
- i don't like the sound of birds chirping.

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1130pm
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- today is my couch potato day. food and tv makes the best combi.. ahhhh i even had roasted black pepper chicken as a tv SNACK. kill meeeeeeeeeee
i hate the wings though. or i'd finish the whole damn cheeeeken.
- i got to know someone who has the exact same habbit as me! we can finish the whole damn pack of yakults at a go! (maybe even two!) why do their bottles have to be so small. it'd make things alot easier if its just a big bottle instead of small bottles in a pack.
- i'm getting fairer i need to tan.
- i miss her
- my wound still pain pain.
- supposed to pack my room today. but i was feeling really couch-potatoey. didn’t wanna move a muscle :\
- i punched the wall though. and my hand pain pain.
i was feeling frustrated when i heard the news
- didn’t go tanning at nyp today :(
(woke up late because of bad weather prediction!)

metalteeth gonna change color soon! feel free to suggest what color for this month :D

OKAYYYYYYY!
i love the sun sun sun!!!!!

every sat&sun is meihui-day!

anyway we went NYP today hoping to get a tan!
omg my back’s burnt! i wanted to “even out” my tan cus my front was chao-tah so i was lying on my front the whole time and now my back’s more chao-tah than the front! its sooo gonna be never-ending but nevermind, i can get tanner and tanner and tanner! lets just hope there’s sun everyweek for us to tan :D

OKAY then chef started laughing at my weird tan-mark!!

(picture taken few days ago!!!!)

OKAY BUT NOW NO MORE ALREADY HOKAY!!! now its all chaotah behind.
nothing to laugh about already :D

imma make use of my underwatercam next sunday if its good weather to go! :D

i wanna be a blackieeeee

blackies are cute!

garhh
i hate that tingling/numb sensation in my fingers. damn irritating.

okay i’m blabbering here cus i can’t get to sleep. (i don’t eve knnow what i’m talkin bout lahhhh)
maybe its the excessive sugar intake. almost everything i consumed today contains sugar! cept for the meats and eggs butbut yeah, almost everything else’s sugar. yikes!

oh yeah i didn’t sleep well last night. woke up almost every hour.
i thought i’d be soooo exhausted today. (actually i am, i just can’t get to sleep)
maybe i need some tranquilizer!

hmm today my mom asked me what i wanted to do after i’m done with nafa, i’m like “i don’t even like what i’m doing now.” blablabla then she’s like “oh.. it’s like that one lah the basics” yeahyeah righttttttt… maybe i should just disappear so i don’t have to waste her precious money on me wasting my time in doing sth i totally dread doin.

but then again, she’ll be sooo disappointed. and the whole point of me keeping my mouth shut’s cus i don’t wanna disappoint her again and again.

butbutbut…
okay nuff of that i’m so fuggin vexed donch wanna think about it

anyway when people start talkin serious to me i’ll like get freaked out and scared and wanna run away kinda thing.. if i don’t wanna talk about it or promise anything please don’t harp on it i’ll get scared!

mmm my after-sun repair lotion’s running out.. hope my skin doesn’t start to peel yet!!!!

ahhhh there’s alot of dvds i wanna get! mannn i’m such a couch potato :P

teehee

okay then then..
I CAN”T WAIT TO PAINT MY ROOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay like 2 years ago my mom ALMOST bought me a small flat screen LCD TV FOR MY ROOOOOM!!!! but fuckit i said i didn’t need a tv in my room then.
NOW WHEN I WANT SHE’LL FUGGIN NEOW ME.
can you believe how stupid i was to’ve said that!!!!! ARGHGHGHGHGHG I WANT MY TVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV

okay heartattack bye

(testing my wideangle adaptor for video)

so that’s how bad (and silly) my love for elmo is.
don’t laugh!
i dont know why everytime i look at that silly thing hanging on my cellphone, there’s a smile on my face automatically!
you must be thinking i’ve gone bonkers by now (:

mr.lawrence would be glad to see this:
i’m up, at 8am. (and no, its not because i haven’t gone to bed)

chanel makeup’s my current addiction.
(please make money fall from the sky)

any girlfriend wanna go for hair grooming together?
i think i need a trim soon

want to go ikea.

i know i’m fat, but liposuction, is not cheap.

good morning.

+cream of tomato is my new addiction
+ben&jerry’s strawberry cheesecake is still love, despite eating every single day for a month.
+i need to wake up in approx 5 hours and 30 minutes.
+i saw someone in doubt. and my advice: one should not contemplate going full-time into something you’re not good at.
+then again, i’m not fit to be giving advice.
+i’m excited.
+i’m feeling broke looking at my shopping list.
+i’m full.
+i dreamt about that BITCH for the second time. i hate her even in my dreams. she’s unoriginal, disgusting, fugly, disgusting, unorginal, fugly.
+i’m feeling very talkative now.
+i need to wake up in approx 5 hours and 20 minutes.
+i almost got fired.
+i hate hypocrites. (i didn’t know they still exsist)
+i’m still in bad terms with my mom.
+she still doesn’t know i started working.
+she hasn’t asked me what i want for my birthday (which i doubt she will ever ask)
+she prolly thinks i’m mixing with hooligans with all that cigg smell in my clothes
+i like it when she thinks that way
+and i like how she can’t do anything about it.
+i bet she can never picture me earning bucks the way i am.
+i hate bootlickers. (until i realise i was one, subtly)
+but i pick people.
+i pick people to be nice to
+in fact, i pick my friends
+i don’t talk to everyone.
+in fact, i ignore alot of people
+but its not because of how you think.
+i hate people with motives
+but then again, who doesn’t.
+(as in, who doesn’t have motives.)
+i have to be up in approx 5 hours and 10 minutes.

good night is your good morning.

sometimes, i forget how i look like.
that’s what a mirror’s for- to remind myself of how i look.

i look at my old pictures to remind and convince myself more, that the pain braces is causing me is going to be worth it.

but i do miss those pearly whites.

i look at teeth too much.
and i can’t stand the slightest imperfection.

oh
and btw,
i look at your teeth too.

(i am always bewitched by a charming wide smile)
and needless to say, i’m always turned-off by nasty teeth

oh wells.

ever since melicacy.com’s been down, lemme recall what happened kay.

-started working at a pub
-rekindled love: my “wife” & i <3
-gpt addicted to ice cream
-drifted even further away from something called family, and someplace called home
-mom went bali
-had some disputes with my mom
-mom went malaysia
-castings
-planning trips
-missing xiany
-met up with an old friend daniel
-"slumber-partied" with chelle & ian
-bumped into eric (i think i'll be seeing even more of him future... LOL)
-adore elmo more and more
-revamped my room (hokay.. just re-arranged the furniture)
-got myself new toy cameras (my favourite one's the underwater camera with flash! the one i had was without flash. i love underwater pics soooosooooomuch.)
-braces
-don't chew. swallow.
-had the most magnificent star-gazing experience
-broke 3 packets of needles (don't ask)
-still obsessing about that fisheye2 :*(
-spent all my money on cabs and ben&jerry's
-started coughing
-started painting again
-got lazier
-learnt to understand people a lil more
-fretting over ******

-red is the new stupid (eg. you're so red = you're so stupid)
-jiji is the new hello
-elmo is the new love (eg. i elmo you = i love you!)

and..
i soooooo want a macbookpro. photobooth :((

okay more pics tmr (: