melicacy

woah its been like a month since i’ve updated.
reason being: i rarely use my laptop, or rather, i rarely use any computers anymore! (i know there’s a computer in school but i’m rarely in school :P) i’m always surfing from my iphone thus i’m updating twitter alot more!

my laptop’s super dusty!

anyways i’ve injured my toe
so here’s the story
i was cutting stuff on the floor with the penknife and used too much force and in goes the penknife into my toe :S
i was like super freaked out and limped to the other side of the living room with blood dripping and flesh hanging :S :S :S i didn’t know it was that bad till i saw how my toe was split open and detached.
i grabbed tissues and pressed my toe to close the gap and then i didn’t dare let go anymore lest the toe splits open again :..(
i was super freaked out and scared and then i laid on the sofa from 2am till 5-ish? didn’t dare move i was just hoping it’ll get better and by pressing i was hoping it’d stop bleeding
5-ish i went up to shower (i bandaged the tissues with plaster so i don’t have to hold onto my toe)
after showering i wanted to change the tissue and i freaked out even more when i saw so much blood and part of that toe’s still detached. how silly of me to think that the toe would go back by itself -_-” i couldn’t think straight anyway i was so freaked out right
my maid saw the traces of blood in the living room then she heard me crying i think then she asked “are you cutting your hand again?”
omgz okay so now i’m this suicidal problem kid in her eyes.
okay then i just told her i injured my toe then she kinda helped advise me a bit (so she ain’t that bad afterall..)
she said if its still bleeding at 7 i should see a doctor
so i went to bed first (still holding my toe)
then i posted on facebook asking for advice
aiman’s superrrrrr nice! he called me immediately!
okay so after all the scary infection warning and amputation warning i freaked out even more!
i fell asleep for like 2 hours before my mom came into the room
my maid told her about my cut so my mom’s taking me to the doctor (she wanted to see the wound but i was freaking out i didn’t dare let go of the tissue lest my toe opens up again OMGz)
okay so i limped all the way to the clinic
(my mom’s supposed to be at work but she called to make arrangement to go later :/)
okay then at the clinic i was given priority to jump queue
the doctor seems like she’s all flustered cos i was like so freaked out.. lol
then my mom was hugging me and comforting me and saying prayers like (god will take away your pain or something and all that) while doc’s doing my wound
had 5 stiches
they’re like “you’re very brave blablabla” BUT HELLO???? WHAT CAN I DO RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was crying in pain but i can’t ask them to stop right duhhhh
so my toe’s nicely bandaged

but it still bleeds at times

okay so 2 days later (just now) i went back for a follow-up. my dad brought me cos my mom’s gone to malaysia
and doc says my wound isn’t healing as well as she expected and i have to go a&e
she said i might have to cut the existing stitches and re-stitch (AND I BLOODY FREAKED OUT OKAY OMG that sounded so damn scary and i was like SUPERDUPER FREAKED.)
so she wrote a letter for the hospital and off i go to tan tock seng hospital.
paid $90 and waited 2 hours for consultation
and then they just brushed me off and say they can’t do anything for now because its not time to remove the stitches and then just cleaned up and re-bandaged my wound and ask me to go for a follow up in 3 days time.

love trying out different marinates, this way i can never get sick of chicken! <3 and i love potatoes sosososomuch <3

i <3 to cook many different flavored packets of instant noodles in a huge pot and nomnomnom the night away! super comfort food to the max! i cook the noodles till they’re reallllllllllyyyyy soft and soggy and drain the starchy water and add clean water again to boil and add the seasonings!

bought this little thing @ ikea for only 0.90cents!! :P <3

slacking away as usual (whenever possible)

plus sides about working:
-workplace is like less than 10 mins walk to ikea <3
-awesome classmate attached to the same company :D
-hawker food here’s awesome! some stuff i always buy: curry puffs, mee siam, mee rebus, fried hokkien mee, fried oyster omelette, paus (buns), etc etc i look forward to buying food every single day! <3
-and my mom gives me more money ever since i started working :D

but the down sides… countless.

I TOTALLY HATE TRAFFIC JAMS. on a bad/rainy day, we’d take like an hour to drive back LIKE WTF RIGHT. it’s already far enough and the jam totally makes me hate the location even more.

work’s draining & sucking all that energy in me as i’m counting the days till the end of attachment - 26 June. ):
-counting down to 6.30pm everyday
-hoping that there’ll be no assignment given so i can slack the day away
-going out to buy food to get a break from the stressful environment
-hiding in the toilet & slack when the aircon’s freezing cold

now i’m extremely certain that i’m not ready for working life (and i don’t know when i’ll ever be)
i hate being asked to do work ): especially by colleagues around my age. basically i hate being asked to do stuff -_-” and if its not what they expect i’ve to re-do according to their preferences I”LL BE SUPER PISSEDDDDDDDDDD i guess i’m just too pampered but whatever.
and i hate to abide by the rules (but here its not so bad because there’s no fixed timing for lunch breaks, can go anytime just have to be back in about an hr)

i’m such a slacker ): i can’t relate to majority who’d rather be asked to do work, like they actually complain when they have no work to do -_-”
OMG i’d so rather stone the day away than be piled up with stuff to do ):
but i guess that’s just me

and i don’t like this company because my miser boss makes full use of us cheap labour and makes sure he gets his money well spent. if we finish our work he’d give us more work so we wouldn’t idle. we’re paid a miserable $460 and he still thinks we’re not doing enough to make his money well spent -_-” _|_

but i’m sooooo glad i’m not alone here, i don’t know how i’d survive without my classmate lili around with me!
26 JUNE, PLEASE COME SOONERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeap that’s the capacity of my hearty appetite ;P

i’ve always loved waffles (waffles over pancakes!!!)
and i finally got a waffle iron from carrefour it costs less than 30 bucks isn’t that like super affordable!! <3

they taste damn good right out of the iron hot and crispy with BUTTER <3 but if they turn cold and soft after putting around for awhile, JUST DUNK AND EAT IT WITH ICE CREAM <3

NOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why’s gambling like everywhere during cny.
i hate gambling. i hate the thought of it. i hate the sound of it. i hate people doing it.

anyways my neighbor’s been swimming with them mahjong tiles since afternoon so they prolly hit 12 hours of non-stop gambling already.
i’m on level 2 now and i can still hear the shuffling of mahjong tiles in their backyard.
actually that doesn’t annoy me (compared to the wails of babies) there is no noise i hate more than any sound a baby makes. even a laughter irks me. okay shall not drift too far from the gambling topic.

i remember in the past at every chalet/party, whenever the mates play cards/gamble i’d always feel totally left out because i hated to get involved in such activities.

so yeah. if so many people love getting involved in such activities that’s prolly why i’m friendless.
but i won’t care to make friends with gamblers anyways :)

my lovely pantry stocked up with my loves!

actually there’re alot more junkfood around the living room but here’s the part where i pack and stack them properly teehee

the bags of chips, i can’t be bothered to pack them because there’s no need to :P they come and go real quick! (if you get what i mean… yeah they get consumed and get stocked up real quick so there’s no point packing them so they’re still in the shopping bags all over the place :P)

and i’m a messy person so basically there’s junk everywhere
a good example:

and here’s the freezer my mom got for me quite awhile back ago for my ice cream :D

i couldn’t even be bothered to throw the shopping bags LOL i just dump everything in the freezer when i get back. and my maid’s following my lazy traits so here’s the messy freezer.

i can’t live without ice cream!!!! <3 <3 <3

okay i may look like i’m sucha fortunate spoilt kid but NO OKAY i’m just a lazy freeloader a good-for-nothing wasting my life away slacking away
omg i feel like such a pig right now :P (cept that i don’t look the part luhh)

i’ve been dreaming a lot lately.
different people, people whom i thought didn’t matter, random people i barely communicate with, people i went to school with but barely socialized, people from my past.
i don’t know why, there’re periods when i don’t dream at all for a long time, and there’re times when i keep dreaming for nights and nights consecutively.
might be any drugs i’m consuming but idk for sure.
i don’t really like the aftermath of dreams. gets me thinking, recollecting, and thinking more.

on a random note, I HATE ANTS. i have a spraycan of insecticide by my bedside so i can kill whatever that passes my eyes. BUT THEY STILL COME BACK fucking shitz.
one morning i was BITTEN by a tiny ant, and awoken by it. of course i killed it.
the ants around my bed are those tiny tiny ants, and i just sprayed a bunch of them on my window. (so i guess that’s where they’re coming from) my bed is just beside my window.
maybe i should just place ant killer thingies all over so i don’t have to trouble myself to spray and hunt for them.

and for those SAINTS who feel that we shouldn’t kill insects, go to your motherfucking hell. it is because of idiots like you that there are more insects around. just fucking kill them. you won’t go to heaven just because you DIDN”T.

oh the other day i was so brave.
you know all the while i thought lizards (geckos) are my friends because they help kill ants/whatever insects and i have never killed a lizard. BUT THE ANTS ARE STILL THERE so i decided to just kill them.
AND I REALIZE THERE ARE GETTING MORE AND MORE LIZARDS IN OUR HOUSE. I EVEN WITNESSED ONE FROM A BABY GROWING INTO AN ADULT. (aww i’m like the mommy right watching them grow up) fucking shitz now i spot another baby in the living room and i’m gonna watch it grow up LOL

okay back to my bathroom. omg you don’t know HOW MUCH i’ve sprayed on them and they STILL WON”T DIE. (at first)
so i thought maybe the insecticide won’t work on lizards because the bottle shows like flying insects and roaches and maybe lizards are too huge to die from it IDK RIGHT
so okay i continued spraying and i thought all the spraying did was just limit their climbing because they keep slipping and falling when they try to get on the wall SO I WAS STUCK WITH 2 CRAWLING LIZARDS IN MY BATHROOM (ON THE FUCKING SAME GROUND AS ME)
so okay i took a plastic container and trapped a lizard in it (omg it was making so much noise) bloody hell and the other lizard was at the other corner (i had no more containers) so i just continued spraying LOL
OKAY THIS IS THE BRAVE PART RIGHT I”M SO FUCKING BRAVE TO GET SO NEAR TO THAT FUCKING LIZARD TO TRAP IT IN THE CONTAINER RIGHT OMG AND IT WAS STILL MOVING AND JUMPING OKAY!

they were still moving 30 minutes later but in the morning they were at the same spot, motionless. so YAY they died.
the insecticide works. JUST TAKES HELLUVA LONG TIME.

WOOOOOOOOO KILL ALL INSECTS THEY ALL DESERVE TO DIE
-end-

that no one touches.

DON’T EVEN LOOK AT IT………………. :D :D :D
THEY’RE ALL MINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..!!

whom i meet only once a year, for barely 2 hours each visit. (lunar new year visiting)
this year, twice, only because i have to interview an old folk for a school project.
i truly am guilty, and ashamed.

random stuff i found out about her:
she is more easy-going than i thought she would be
she’s been hospitalized before, 5 years ago (and i didn’t even know)
she has many friends and loves hanging out
she speaks malay better than mandarin
she has to take lots of medication everyday to sustain her life
she goes to malaysia for short trips with her friends
she doesn’t miss her granddaughter (me) a lot or yearn to see me/spend time with me that much
she dotes on her grandsons a lot, probably because she takes care of them since forever
my mom’s the one who gives her a lot of money and offers to sponsor her if she wants to travel around
my mom takes her out to restaurants for meals occasionally

it was.. awkward. but i’m glad i visited her (always wanted to but didn’t) because afterall she’s my grandmother and she’s old and… well yeah.

back to the junks way too early, no wonder i’m not getting a speedy recovery ):

this was lunch today

no chips for 3 days already ): no wonder i’m losing weight.
tea-time i tried eating crackers but this’s the first time ever i didn’t finish the entire packet ):
i finished 3/4 packet but with some difficulty. it’s tiring to crunch on just one side.

it’s father’s day and i really wanna eat some good food with my dad but ): ): ):

dvd marathon

thai prepaid sim card & cellphone; coco crunch; breakfast - noodles, fruits, eggs, sausages, porridge, juice; ‘burberry’ cabbie

getting dreadlocks @ khaosan road

my neighbor mr gary caught me snooping around my garden when he happened to pass by

i was actually just really bored, waiting for time to pass, for my mom to send me to school.

made a few icky discoveries.

uh yeah, i never knew there were icky baby snails around here.

i’m tempted to label this entry under the category ‘food’ alongside the 3 categories, because i can totally visualize these little things in my saucepan, sautéed.
oh the fragrance.
but on second thoughts, i have never, and will never attempt to set my teeth on a snail.

eek.

especially them just outta the oven, crispy and hot
smothered in butter

oh delish.

randomsss

things i like about school/going to school

-most lecturers here are nicer than any other lecturers who’ve taught me in the previous tertiary schools i’ve been to
-my dad’s around to help me ’store’ my huge projects in his office that i’m lazy to bring home
-most morning days my mom sends me to school (if she’s in sg), so i like going to school for that. sometimes she holds my hand while she drives, as though she knows i’m going to die soon

things i dislike about going to school

-the freezing aircon temperature which makes it unbearable to sit through the entire lesson. (makes me chant chant chant wanna go home wanna go home wanna go home)
-when my mom isn’t free/around to send me to school, i friggin dread walking to take a bus to school. and the friggin waiting time is so friggin long.
i hate walking the same few routes to/fro. fyi i already tried the different routes possible and i’m getting so sick and tired fucking shit.
-and i HATE it soooo sooooo much more waiting for the bus to get home. bloodyhell.

things that would make me go to school more:

-timetable with shorter days
-aircon temperature turned up (eco-friendly, conserve electricity and keep warm!)
-an apartment just across school
-or my mom to send me to school and back home everyday (dream on.)
-or a chauffeur

blah blah blah

it all started with gobbling 2 bottles at a go..

to 4 bottles a day..

to 6 bottles a day..

and 8 bottles a day is the current highest record

omg despite the blisters i get on my tongue and heatiness and all, i am still very much addicted.
i can totally live on pringlessssssssssssss

and that, is a lot of money.

this is no wonder i have no money for anything else. tsk.

and my mom has gone to taiwan without leaving any money for me.

ggrrrreeeaaatt…..

i feel that the best way to spend time together during mealtime is to have steamboat
i thought it’d be kinda pointless to drive out and have a quick 30 min meal at a fine dining place and then head home.. through steamboat, more time is spent together, thus more time for conversations (eg. while waiting for food to cook)
now its no wonder why its become a tradition to have steamboat during lunar new year

i wish for more steamboat sessions..

kaya lovin’

i only cooked the scrambled eggs, the beehoon was leftover tahpao-ed.
i wish i knew how to fry beehoon.

i hate the fact that i have a fucked up maid that i can’t stand, and a mom who never cooks.
there’s simply no one to learn from or share culinary tips with.

been baking everyday, but only the same old recipe, digging into the same simple cake everyday. well how comforting it is, i wouldn’t wanna break away from my comfort zone just yet.
but maybe some day, when i’m not lazy, when i’m sick of my simple-delicious cake, when i wake up a genius baker, hopefully i can bake pretty cookies like these (:

school’s been nothing but hectic. dragging myself outta bed everyday, going to school just only to countdown to go home.
out of 16 exercises from studio project class, i’ve barely completed 8.
looking at how diligent my mates were at doing those researches made me feel nothing but inferior and lazy.
i hate doing researches and having to print..
when my lecturer larry checked my file, he blatantly asked if i was going to give up again.. i was.. speechless.
the other lecturer shaun added : why melissa! you got so much potential why give up!
speechless again.
giving up is never an easy choice..
i do NOT want to give up…
especially here..
plus having my family rooting for me, encouraging me, WATCHING me (dad)..

okay enough of the ramblings
here’re some pics from our color studies outdoor studio

spot me :D

that’s my favourite hoodie from zara last winter season ): its so old now! i wish they still retail it.. i’d sooooo get it in every color available. its so damn comfy ):

❤ cookies + cake + ice cream = heavenly! ❤

i was feeling down, so i decided to give myself a little treat :]

did i mention i soooooo love kiddy cakes (:

with lots and lots of whipped cream! (there aint enoughhhh…)

man.. i never ever grow up :p

❤ my hoodie finally came in the package! lovin’ it ❤

❤ every tuesday is kfc super tuesday! ❤

❤ baked cheesecake ❤

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❤❤❤ i loveeeeee cheesecake! ❤❤❤

omg so its kfc 4 days in a row!

i’m already so unhealthy w/o kfc, now i’m super especially unhealthy!

and financially-wise too.
($88 goneeeee)

omg been having kfc not only every tuesday, but 3 times this week!!!
and 3 days in a row!
well i was so tempted by the promotion.
they usually only have it on every tuesday, super tuesday promo!
now.. they’re having this promo everyday till 25 july!!!
how awesome’s that :D
$20 for 8 pieces of chicken that comes with free crunchy bites and 2 large whipped potato!
(well supposedly 1 large coleslaw and 1 large whipped but omg coleslaw, no thanks dudeee)

yay love kfc kfc kfc

this is teddy, my childhood sweetheart

<3

love this childhood munchy!
old times old times..
new products come up, old products get forgotten..
some even cease to produce anymore…

yurh a good reminder to self. i should just move on. stop getting ’stuck’ in this fucking phase. i’m only doing myself all the harm that i do not need. hah but yeah easier said than done.

in case you were wondering what my new toy was in the previous post,
here it is!

ooolala every tuesday is kfc’s super tuesday!!

sooo…

i havehavehavehave to order kfc every tuesday :D

together with my daily dose of cookies and cream ice cream,

spell p-e-r-f-e-c-t!!!!!

so damn satisfying :P

say hello to miss gluttony please!

haven’t had a decent picture update in ages due to the fact that my compact cameras were all broken and i had to depend on my cellphone snapshots (which are ever-so-lousy in quality) and dslr shots (which i’m lazy to upload that often)

but now……..

how can my tuesday get any better!!!!!

in addition to the new toy lens accessory my mom got me,

i finally got my longgggg waited olympus 850SW !

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but well this means i won’t have a chance to pop the question of getting a macbook anytime soon.. since we’re wayyyy over budget :S
o’wells… can’t be greedy and impatient.. good things are worth the wait! like how i waited so damn long for a new compact camera (:

(wasn’t lookin at the lens :X)

what a pictureful update!

thanks to my mom :)

so here’re my adorable classmates in hoodies (:

love chillin at the staff lounge! and i’ve got new company, chee kian (:
well minus the lunch-hour crowd though. middle-aged men making helluva noise playing games. not a very common scene, well for me at least.

skipped the last lesson on friday again.. damn i hated myself for doing that.. ended up sulking for the rest of the time at home. and spent even more money on food.

what am i to do with myself..
what am i to do..
sigh.

so my saturday afternoon was spent with my dad and sis at Sizzler’s!
a belated birthday lunch for my sis (:
been so long since we dined together.. glad that we did!

stayed from only 11.30am till 2-ish though..
not as worth it as the previous times that i went, many many rounds!
my dad and sis were full already and stopped and i would feel bad if i continued while they just wait and watch me eat somemore.. didnt wanna gross my dad out with how much food i can eat either :X
plus the toilet was flooded, quite gross, so i didn’t feel like enjoying food there anymore
would love to go again soon :D

well we took a bus there because my mom drove the car.
my dad had to pay by cash because my mom maxed out her supplementary card for their account.
we enjoyed our lunch because it didn’t seem like a missing person anyway. (my mom’s rarely around)

well so after lunch my sis went off first, then my dad and i took a bus back, went to lorong lew lian and bought somemore food back :D

tomorrow he’ll be marketing for steamboat ingredients and we’re gonna have steamboat for dinner (:
no one’s pinning any hope for my mom to be back for dinner, cus we know for sure she won’t.

so vacation’s over..
all i’ve done was spend $50 a day on food.. not good..

back to school.. feeling zoned out.. totally disconnected.

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well at least there’s my nasi bryani to look forward to..
(she still recognises me even after 2 weeks vacation!)

so that’s about $50 worth of pizza in a day..

@ 12.45am

can’t sleep..