melicacy

i’ve been dreaming a lot lately.
different people, people whom i thought didn’t matter, random people i barely communicate with, people i went to school with but barely socialized, people from my past.
i don’t know why, there’re periods when i don’t dream at all for a long time, and there’re times when i keep dreaming for nights and nights consecutively.
might be any drugs i’m consuming but idk for sure.
i don’t really like the aftermath of dreams. gets me thinking, recollecting, and thinking more.

on a random note, I HATE ANTS. i have a spraycan of insecticide by my bedside so i can kill whatever that passes my eyes. BUT THEY STILL COME BACK fucking shitz.
one morning i was BITTEN by a tiny ant, and awoken by it. of course i killed it.
the ants around my bed are those tiny tiny ants, and i just sprayed a bunch of them on my window. (so i guess that’s where they’re coming from) my bed is just beside my window.
maybe i should just place ant killer thingies all over so i don’t have to trouble myself to spray and hunt for them.

and for those SAINTS who feel that we shouldn’t kill insects, go to your motherfucking hell. it is because of idiots like you that there are more insects around. just fucking kill them. you won’t go to heaven just because you DIDN”T.

oh the other day i was so brave.
you know all the while i thought lizards (geckos) are my friends because they help kill ants/whatever insects and i have never killed a lizard. BUT THE ANTS ARE STILL THERE so i decided to just kill them.
AND I REALIZE THERE ARE GETTING MORE AND MORE LIZARDS IN OUR HOUSE. I EVEN WITNESSED ONE FROM A BABY GROWING INTO AN ADULT. (aww i’m like the mommy right watching them grow up) fucking shitz now i spot another baby in the living room and i’m gonna watch it grow up LOL

okay back to my bathroom. omg you don’t know HOW MUCH i’ve sprayed on them and they STILL WON”T DIE. (at first)
so i thought maybe the insecticide won’t work on lizards because the bottle shows like flying insects and roaches and maybe lizards are too huge to die from it IDK RIGHT
so okay i continued spraying and i thought all the spraying did was just limit their climbing because they keep slipping and falling when they try to get on the wall SO I WAS STUCK WITH 2 CRAWLING LIZARDS IN MY BATHROOM (ON THE FUCKING SAME GROUND AS ME)
so okay i took a plastic container and trapped a lizard in it (omg it was making so much noise) bloody hell and the other lizard was at the other corner (i had no more containers) so i just continued spraying LOL
OKAY THIS IS THE BRAVE PART RIGHT I”M SO FUCKING BRAVE TO GET SO NEAR TO THAT FUCKING LIZARD TO TRAP IT IN THE CONTAINER RIGHT OMG AND IT WAS STILL MOVING AND JUMPING OKAY!

they were still moving 30 minutes later but in the morning they were at the same spot, motionless. so YAY they died.
the insecticide works. JUST TAKES HELLUVA LONG TIME.

WOOOOOOOOO KILL ALL INSECTS THEY ALL DESERVE TO DIE
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i have been having lotsa dreams…

the nice dreams..
that baby german shephard, going oz, ..

but the thing is..
they all turn up to be a disaster.. no matter how sweet the dream was to begin with..

i dreamt that i got married!!!
a very dramatic one tho. like we went through forests, went up down left right all over to get to this destination where my relatives were there and all. (seemed like another forest to me..lol)
sooooo totally weird
and i remember something my mom said in the dream “you guys took so long.. got lost in the forest or playing “chess?”
wth haha.
anyways
it’s not like i’m 30 and desperate to get married kind yo?
so yeah its just a stupid dream.

i dreamt about someone i’ve never met.

i guess that’s the power of imagination.
and my imagination is most vivid in my dreams