melicacy

my first birthday present (:
loveeee it! <3
but most of all i really appreciate the thought of wanting to get me something.. so touched (:

her cheerfulness is contagious!
and even if i’m in the worse mood i’d always make sure i try my best not to affect her because i can’t afford to make her lose that smile (:

i think this friendship is the best birthday present already (: (:

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

the colleagues at other departments are sooo much nicer ):
everywhere else is better than where i am right now.

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

woahhhh my first salary in… YEARS!
its a pathetic amount but whatever the pay is money is never enough anyway. LOL even if i get 5k its still never enough. so whatever amount doesnt matter.
just wana get this internship done and over with! (AND NEVER WANNA WORK IN THE NEAR FUTURE LIKE GIVE ME 5 YEARS TO RECOVER FROM THIS NIGHTMARE!)

2 more friggin months!!!!!
CAN”T WAIT.

the only stuffs that’re keeping me going: lili & FOOD!
other than that i can’t wait to get outta this hell

the cold’s making me angsty & irritable and i have no mood to do anything but stone & freeze.

i’m wearing 2 thick layers now and i’m still cold ):

brought my sheepy to work today but ain’t helping much with the cold ):

i just want today to be over like NOWWWWWWW
AND FRIDAY TO COME ):

i cried this morning before work when my mom TRIED to encourage/console me. (but failed of course, knowing the pessimist in me)
and i’m trying so hard to keep my tears in right now as i’m typing this ):
i hate being in this “outside world” where i have to consider the feelings of others and have people bossing me around. this internship’s making me abhor working life so much i’m scared shit to ever start working when i’m older.
and makes me feel like cooping myself at home even more on off-days, just to avoid facing the “outside world”
the only time i like going out is during breaks when we go out to buy food.

my mom tried consoling me saying that i don’t have to start work so quickly after schooling but i can’t avoid it forever???????? i’ll turn 30 soon ):
maybe when the time comes when i have to start work i’ll just commit suicide.

i’m super cynical & suicidal right now ):
i have tears on my sheepy.
hate being a crybaby but how does one control tears???? i really need to master that. i cry too easily ):

tsk. i just flooded my twitter. maybe i just need a place to rant.

but i have a bad habit of deleting whatever i type so i’ve just deleted a whole page of rants here because i figure i don’t need the whole world to read about my pointless rants.

i can go on and on but i’ll just keep deleting them so..

fuck it this is a totally pointless post.

i’m just moody and angsty and cold and nasty and if my mom talks to me anytime soon i swear i’m gonna have a panic attack.
thank god she’s at the other side of singapore right now. but no thanks to god i’m at work.
i can’t wait for internship to be over. i hate my boss. i hate waking up early. i hate doing shit work.

okay before i delete everything again i’ll just publish this.

and add a picture to this senseless post reflecting my current state.

(update: 1pm)and a 5 min doodle because i didn’t feel like doing the assigned work & i was bored

(update: 3pm)

free fruits!

counting down: 3+ hours to go

(update: 5.30pm)
i’m not looking forward to tomorrow (onwards) because we have to move in to sit with the rest of the colleagues >:(
fucking ruined my mood. i’m gonna hate working even more now.
the aircon inside’s gonna be so much colder and the seats less comfy and with so many eyes watching there’s prolly less opportunity to slack.
(i just woke up from an hour’s nap btw :X)
hownowbrowncow i wanna think of excuses to move back :(((((((((((
i hate my boss i hate my boss i hate my boss.

monday bluesssss ):
counting down to friday once again..

shouting session with mom in the car this morning - bad start to a day ):<
well at least she gave me money automatically - that could appease my anger, well temporarily.
its soo soo hard to get along with anyone because i simply can’t control my emotions and candidness.
i dreamt of having a panic attack last night, i don’t know if its because i’ve been suppressing it, but i’m glad its only a dream.

on a side note, i’ve dreamt of like 4 different people i used to be interested in (BUT its all in the past i don’t like them anymore idk why i dreamt of them) and i dreamt of going to thailand during the chaotic protest and i dreamt that i lost my luggage with all my money & etc and i dreamt of a helpful thai blog reader helping me out
i’ve been having so many dreams lately. i don’t mind having more dreams even if it means bad dreams, because it means i’m sleeping more. i’ve been sleeping on an average of 5-6 hours on every working day and i’m totally deprived. but last weekend i slept 10 and 12 hrs (:

i’m being unusually talkative right now because i’m extremely bored at work (thank god for the internet)
last friday there wasn’t any new projects so i was idling the entire working day :D SUPER SHIOK. and i just got back my re-formatted macbook so i was installing applications and downloading games/icons the entire day :X SHIOKNESS.
but idling is really rare in this company because my miser boss wants to make use of us to the friggin max. so… that should be my fav workday ever

and we went to anchorpoint just now :D
the shoppaholics in us couldn’t resist buying stuff, and so we got ourselves new apparels from fox (:
then bought my usual nom noms & my favorite hokkien mee
i <3 uncle and uncle <3 me! he’s so adorable and he remembers my preferences like $4 w/o sotong and more meat <3

counting down religiously every single day/hour/week
now i’m counting down to 6.30pm and every monday i’ll count down to friday and i just can’t wait for 26 June to come ):
i dislike my miser boss.

bought this little thing @ ikea for only 0.90cents!! :P <3

slacking away as usual (whenever possible)

plus sides about working:
-workplace is like less than 10 mins walk to ikea <3
-awesome classmate attached to the same company :D
-hawker food here’s awesome! some stuff i always buy: curry puffs, mee siam, mee rebus, fried hokkien mee, fried oyster omelette, paus (buns), etc etc i look forward to buying food every single day! <3
-and my mom gives me more money ever since i started working :D

but the down sides… countless.

I TOTALLY HATE TRAFFIC JAMS. on a bad/rainy day, we’d take like an hour to drive back LIKE WTF RIGHT. it’s already far enough and the jam totally makes me hate the location even more.

work’s draining & sucking all that energy in me as i’m counting the days till the end of attachment - 26 June. ):
-counting down to 6.30pm everyday
-hoping that there’ll be no assignment given so i can slack the day away
-going out to buy food to get a break from the stressful environment
-hiding in the toilet & slack when the aircon’s freezing cold

now i’m extremely certain that i’m not ready for working life (and i don’t know when i’ll ever be)
i hate being asked to do work ): especially by colleagues around my age. basically i hate being asked to do stuff -_-” and if its not what they expect i’ve to re-do according to their preferences I”LL BE SUPER PISSEDDDDDDDDDD i guess i’m just too pampered but whatever.
and i hate to abide by the rules (but here its not so bad because there’s no fixed timing for lunch breaks, can go anytime just have to be back in about an hr)

i’m such a slacker ): i can’t relate to majority who’d rather be asked to do work, like they actually complain when they have no work to do -_-”
OMG i’d so rather stone the day away than be piled up with stuff to do ):
but i guess that’s just me

and i don’t like this company because my miser boss makes full use of us cheap labour and makes sure he gets his money well spent. if we finish our work he’d give us more work so we wouldn’t idle. we’re paid a miserable $460 and he still thinks we’re not doing enough to make his money well spent -_-” _|_

but i’m sooooo glad i’m not alone here, i don’t know how i’d survive without my classmate lili around with me!
26 JUNE, PLEASE COME SOONERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

right now.

but i’m not
but maybe i need to.

i’ve been sleeping around 5am everyday
i have a pimple that’s taking forever to heal
i’ve been baking chicken & potatoes <3
i haven’t touched any homework till date
i still hate my mother

and i hate xmas.

2 weeks of not going back to school BUT its soooo not a vacation break THERE”S STILL WORK TO DO though i’m sure the procrastinator in me would wait till the very last minute to get down to do work.
urghhhhhhhh i’m so darn lazy and i’ve been giving crappy work cos all i wanna do is get everything done and over with i can’t be bothered about giving good work
Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

too bad my mom’s not in sg.
my sis’s still in perth
it’s just my dad & i
this year’s birthdays are all screwed.
my birthday cake wasn’t cut on my actual day (which i’m still mad at my mom about)
my sis wasn’t in sg to celebrate her birthday
i was in bangkok on my mom’s birthday
and now my dad’s birthday….
i really wanna cook up a big feast tonight but i’m afraid it’ll be too much/too unhealthy for him. urgh nvm maybe we’ll just cut a cake when my mom’s back?
idk i’m such a horrible daughter.
well but i bought him 3 shirts from bangkok… maybe that could count as a birthday present? idk
but i bet my mom’s super jealous cos i didn’t get her anything :D
who asked her to FORGET ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY.
yeap that’s me for being super unforgiving and now you know how i bear grudges :)

pfft. missed my flight.
i totally underestimated the efficiency level of the budget airline.
they totally closed the counter ON TIME dudeeeeee. i was only like 5 mins late or so. dang.
now i’m waiting for the next flight which’s at 10.50
way to go mel. you have a few hours to kill. can’t sleep lest i miss the flight AGAIN.

urgh.

with the total amount of money spent on those air tix/making of changes, its equivalent to an SQ ticket already. BOOHOOHOO.

and to think i could still be smiling eh

anyways i’ll be updating via twitter when i’m there so check that space out.

on a side note, how do i STOP twitter from automatically updating on my facebook?! i do not wish to flood my friends’ newsfeeds :/

i feel like revamping my room (again)

but i could do so much more with those money (like travel to more places)

dilemma.

but right now i’m spending all my money on food like $50 a day on average.

so whatever it is i’m just a friggin waste of money.

no wonder my mom hates me.

i think i might have lost a kilo or two, by just rushing work at the last minute throughout the weekend.
and however heavy my eyelids, they can’t be any heavier than my eye bags.

(how many times have i yawned already….?????????)

here’s the amateurish crap that i did throughout the weekend (yeah the one i was doing in my nest)

i’m just disappointed that i didn’t spend much thoughts on it. and the fact that i can’t be bothered to use other materials but plain old vanguard sheets (i’m cheapo and lazy okay fine)

and guess how many tubes of UHU glue i’ve used on it!
4 friggin tubes. (i can’t believe it either.) so it totals up to $16 purely on glue.

hey glue sniffers, you should just quit and pass me some of your glue yo.

i have blisters all over my hand from cutting stuff.

and i’m only 30% done with work :(

before bedtime, it’s rush-project-time.
(yeah i do my assignment in bed, so i can sleep right after or whenever i want to)
and yeah i’m wearing sleeping clothes. zero makeup (duh), and with my driller (i use it to drill holes in my cardboards because it’s faster)

how glamourouz. -_-”

well we were bored during martin’s class!
plus the new photobooth effects amuses us. (:

nownownownownow!

yeah right.

a lazy half-asleep “chef” perhaps =P

anyway, hope y’all had a good valentine’s day!

it totally slipped my mind tho xP

kinda lost contact with lotsa friends so i only went to esmond’s place for chinese new year visiting.. lol.. quite sad huh!
but anyway it was nice catching up with an old friend!

my sis’s leaving for aussie in less than 48 hours ):
everyone’s so gonna miss her.. she’s not coming home for chinese new year dinner next year!
shall we go over to aussie for cny dinner next year? :D
my mom keeps harping on going to aussie and even wants to stay there often, yet she’s hesitating about going there on chinese new year next year. tsk!
shall give all my cny wishes to my sis, hope she does well in her studies, takes good care of herself, stays cheerful and healthy, have fun and we will be visiting soon!!!!!!!!!!! wait for us! :D

i <3 photobooth

hello ian tann

i promise i’ll go out with you whenever you ask wokay.

i’m a babooooooooooon :)

ever since melicacy.com’s been down, lemme recall what happened kay.

-started working at a pub
-rekindled love: my “wife” & i <3
-gpt addicted to ice cream
-drifted even further away from something called family, and someplace called home
-mom went bali
-had some disputes with my mom
-mom went malaysia
-castings
-planning trips
-missing xiany
-met up with an old friend daniel
-"slumber-partied" with chelle & ian
-bumped into eric (i think i'll be seeing even more of him future... LOL)
-adore elmo more and more
-revamped my room (hokay.. just re-arranged the furniture)
-got myself new toy cameras (my favourite one's the underwater camera with flash! the one i had was without flash. i love underwater pics soooosooooomuch.)
-braces
-don't chew. swallow.
-had the most magnificent star-gazing experience
-broke 3 packets of needles (don't ask)
-still obsessing about that fisheye2 :*(
-spent all my money on cabs and ben&jerry's
-started coughing
-started painting again
-got lazier
-learnt to understand people a lil more
-fretting over ******

-red is the new stupid (eg. you're so red = you're so stupid)
-jiji is the new hello
-elmo is the new love (eg. i elmo you = i love you!)

and..
i soooooo want a macbookpro. photobooth :((

okay more pics tmr (: