melicacy

been wanting to buy KFC since the first day of internship because there’s this quaint little KFC outlet opposite, beside the hawker that i go to everyday.
today’s the last day of internship (omg i know right time flies!)
and i still haven’t had any KFC omg should i buy but i spent so much today already i don’t deserve to spend anymore on fast food omg thinkthinkthink

i went to ikea & cold storage just now :D
wanted to buy Bastis (a blackie cat furry friend) but i was gonna go to cold storage after ikea so i didn’t wanna carry Bastis everywhere.
i’m so gonna miss ikea after leaving this town, doubt i’d ever step foot in queenstown in the near future
i’m gonna miss all the hawker food & vendors

can’t wait to feast!!!!!!! can’t stop thinking about food already :D

i bet my mom thinks i’m so outdated and socially disconnected that she decided to get an iphone for me :S
but really, i rarely use phones so i thought it was pretty unnecessary of her to get me a new phone but it certainly is serving me well
kept me occupied the entire day at work! i was slacking and downloading apps and playing games the entire day :X
i feel like jailbreaking it to download stuff that ain’t free but if i jailbreak it i won’t be able to download anything from itunes store? idk i’m still a noob, enlighten me if you would.

with the iphone i shall tweet more and post more pictorial updates!

my first birthday present (:
loveeee it! <3
but most of all i really appreciate the thought of wanting to get me something.. so touched (:

her cheerfulness is contagious!
and even if i’m in the worse mood i’d always make sure i try my best not to affect her because i can’t afford to make her lose that smile (:

i think this friendship is the best birthday present already (: (:

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

the colleagues at other departments are sooo much nicer ):
everywhere else is better than where i am right now.

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

the cold’s making me angsty & irritable and i have no mood to do anything but stone & freeze.

i’m wearing 2 thick layers now and i’m still cold ):

brought my sheepy to work today but ain’t helping much with the cold ):

i just want today to be over like NOWWWWWWW
AND FRIDAY TO COME ):

i cried this morning before work when my mom TRIED to encourage/console me. (but failed of course, knowing the pessimist in me)
and i’m trying so hard to keep my tears in right now as i’m typing this ):
i hate being in this “outside world” where i have to consider the feelings of others and have people bossing me around. this internship’s making me abhor working life so much i’m scared shit to ever start working when i’m older.
and makes me feel like cooping myself at home even more on off-days, just to avoid facing the “outside world”
the only time i like going out is during breaks when we go out to buy food.

my mom tried consoling me saying that i don’t have to start work so quickly after schooling but i can’t avoid it forever???????? i’ll turn 30 soon ):
maybe when the time comes when i have to start work i’ll just commit suicide.

i’m super cynical & suicidal right now ):
i have tears on my sheepy.
hate being a crybaby but how does one control tears???? i really need to master that. i cry too easily ):

tsk. i just flooded my twitter. maybe i just need a place to rant.

but i have a bad habit of deleting whatever i type so i’ve just deleted a whole page of rants here because i figure i don’t need the whole world to read about my pointless rants.

i can go on and on but i’ll just keep deleting them so..

fuck it this is a totally pointless post.

i’m just moody and angsty and cold and nasty and if my mom talks to me anytime soon i swear i’m gonna have a panic attack.
thank god she’s at the other side of singapore right now. but no thanks to god i’m at work.
i can’t wait for internship to be over. i hate my boss. i hate waking up early. i hate doing shit work.

okay before i delete everything again i’ll just publish this.

and add a picture to this senseless post reflecting my current state.

(update: 1pm)and a 5 min doodle because i didn’t feel like doing the assigned work & i was bored

(update: 3pm)

free fruits!

counting down: 3+ hours to go

(update: 5.30pm)
i’m not looking forward to tomorrow (onwards) because we have to move in to sit with the rest of the colleagues >:(
fucking ruined my mood. i’m gonna hate working even more now.
the aircon inside’s gonna be so much colder and the seats less comfy and with so many eyes watching there’s prolly less opportunity to slack.
(i just woke up from an hour’s nap btw :X)
hownowbrowncow i wanna think of excuses to move back :(((((((((((
i hate my boss i hate my boss i hate my boss.

monday bluesssss ):
counting down to friday once again..

shouting session with mom in the car this morning - bad start to a day ):<
well at least she gave me money automatically - that could appease my anger, well temporarily.
its soo soo hard to get along with anyone because i simply can’t control my emotions and candidness.
i dreamt of having a panic attack last night, i don’t know if its because i’ve been suppressing it, but i’m glad its only a dream.

on a side note, i’ve dreamt of like 4 different people i used to be interested in (BUT its all in the past i don’t like them anymore idk why i dreamt of them) and i dreamt of going to thailand during the chaotic protest and i dreamt that i lost my luggage with all my money & etc and i dreamt of a helpful thai blog reader helping me out
i’ve been having so many dreams lately. i don’t mind having more dreams even if it means bad dreams, because it means i’m sleeping more. i’ve been sleeping on an average of 5-6 hours on every working day and i’m totally deprived. but last weekend i slept 10 and 12 hrs (:

i’m being unusually talkative right now because i’m extremely bored at work (thank god for the internet)
last friday there wasn’t any new projects so i was idling the entire working day :D SUPER SHIOK. and i just got back my re-formatted macbook so i was installing applications and downloading games/icons the entire day :X SHIOKNESS.
but idling is really rare in this company because my miser boss wants to make use of us to the friggin max. so… that should be my fav workday ever

and we went to anchorpoint just now :D
the shoppaholics in us couldn’t resist buying stuff, and so we got ourselves new apparels from fox (:
then bought my usual nom noms & my favorite hokkien mee
i <3 uncle and uncle <3 me! he’s so adorable and he remembers my preferences like $4 w/o sotong and more meat <3

counting down religiously every single day/hour/week
now i’m counting down to 6.30pm and every monday i’ll count down to friday and i just can’t wait for 26 June to come ):
i dislike my miser boss.

right now.

but i’m not
but maybe i need to.

am a sucker for anything chocolatey now :P

at my mother’s mother’s house.

with esmond, our yearly meet-up! lunar new year keeps us in contact after so many years (:

went to my mom’s side and dad’s side today.
other than enjoying the food idk how/why this festive is being celebrated
and i spoke less than 10 words in my grandma and big-aunt’s place but its not because i’m rude or proud or whatever? i just don’t know how to converse and.. i think i’m dislikable :/ my mom’s sister and cousin seem to dislike me.
but i love my big aunt (dad’s eldest sis) she’s the best aunt ever (: she reminds me so much of my grandma (her mom)
my other aunts have always favored my sis over me since young.
and this year my sis’s not in singapore so it was just awkward silence.

super late post but better than never!
went to the science centre & body world exhibition
mm comments bout the body world; you can put your money to better use. seriously if you’ve been through primary school and have common sense, you’d pretty much know the stuff that they’re exhibiting. nothing captivating. media’s totally overrating it, prolly because of the effort & money spent making the models in exhibition but anyway i’d rather visit art galleries.
pictures weren’t allowed in body world (obviously they wouldn’t want people to see pictures how boring it really is and then change their mind against going LOL)
so other than that, the science centre looks pretty much the way it was when i was there (THE LAST TIME I WENT WAS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL???? LOL)

i’ve been sleeping around 5am everyday
i have a pimple that’s taking forever to heal
i’ve been baking chicken & potatoes <3
i haven’t touched any homework till date
i still hate my mother

and i hate xmas.

2 weeks of not going back to school BUT its soooo not a vacation break THERE”S STILL WORK TO DO though i’m sure the procrastinator in me would wait till the very last minute to get down to do work.
urghhhhhhhh i’m so darn lazy and i’ve been giving crappy work cos all i wanna do is get everything done and over with i can’t be bothered about giving good work
Whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

flash kills but anyway the main focus is the thick chocolatey layer above the cake omgz I MISS DONUTS ALREADY
can i have F’onuts please. i mean.. fucking donuts.

and i must be drunk to post such an incredibly crappy picture of myself

i need more sleep.

so i finally dug out my toy cams and decided the finish the roll to develop them before they rot LOL

the pictures below are probably a year ago or sth i don’t even remember taking some of them

and… the first shot on this roll was:

this was taken in YEAR 1 SEMESTER 1!!! with Mr Woo’s model-making “ice-cream” thing that i did!!!!! omg that was like more than a year ago!!!!

yeap if you saw my twitter, this is it!
i’m sooo glad i went! awesome company with awesome food!

i was sitting pretty far from lili so didn’t have any pics with her in my cam but she’d definitely have awesome shots on her awesome gear!

stolen from aiman (which he stole from lili’s awesome camera :D)

and stolen from lili’s facebook :D
(& tweaked the colors :P)

loveeeeee her lens!!

too bad my mom’s not in sg.
my sis’s still in perth
it’s just my dad & i
this year’s birthdays are all screwed.
my birthday cake wasn’t cut on my actual day (which i’m still mad at my mom about)
my sis wasn’t in sg to celebrate her birthday
i was in bangkok on my mom’s birthday
and now my dad’s birthday….
i really wanna cook up a big feast tonight but i’m afraid it’ll be too much/too unhealthy for him. urgh nvm maybe we’ll just cut a cake when my mom’s back?
idk i’m such a horrible daughter.
well but i bought him 3 shirts from bangkok… maybe that could count as a birthday present? idk
but i bet my mom’s super jealous cos i didn’t get her anything :D
who asked her to FORGET ABOUT MY BIRTHDAY.
yeap that’s me for being super unforgiving and now you know how i bear grudges :)

random ugly pic (i am scared of flash :P)

random hotel pic:

random rants:
-hate it when people say i look korean/japanese. i don’t like their culture/country AT ALL.

-the flight to bkk was disturbed by AUNTIES yakking non-stop.

-the flight back to sg was disturbed by an ANNOYING TWAT. stupid baby crying non-stop. i wish i could throw IT out of the damn plane.

-hate it when people stare at how much i can eat. bloody singaporeans @ the thai restaurant thought i didn’t understand dialect, they were commenting about how much i’m eating etc etc etc the whole damn time. the whole 2 hours they were there they were commenting and looking and commenting.

but anyhows they didn’t affect me. i didn’t give a hoot and ignored them. didn’t even wanna exchange any eye contact. acted like i didn’t understand what they’re saying.

enjoyed my buffets nevertheless :P

random picture: first day in the hotel (when it’s still all neat & clean-ish)

sooo.. i’m back!
with manymany MOVIES. TEEHEE.

my main MISSION was to get MOVIES! and of course street food in BKK is NOMNOM <3

i soooo love street food.

i feel hungry ALL THE FRIGGIN TIME THERE i can’t stop eating omgz but there’re street hawkers almost everywhere so NO PROBLEMO! <3 nom nom all tha way.

i didn't really get any clothes until the last 2 days i was SO BORED of looking at the same stuffs (food, dvds, undies) so i bought like a huge bag (that pasarmalam-ish bag?) and filled it up with new loots (CLOTHES) omgz? lol came back with 2 luggages, 35kg checked-in :X

y’know i really can’t help grocery shopping everywhere i go! it’s SUCH a baddddd habbit. i filled almost the entire luggage with instant noodles/snacks/.. LOL kill me.

and staying just 5 mins away from the supermarket isn’t exactly helping!

and some snacks i bought from a vendor idk if its any good though, haven’t tried!

other random nomnom pics:

people who know me would know that i HAVE to eat ice cream everyday!!!! it’s a crazy addiction that i haven’t been able to kick

didn’t taste fantastic but o’wells, could make do with it! at least it’s still ice cream <3

some random cake:

haha and now my favorite. sth to nomnom when i’m lazy to get out to buy food (NO MORE ROOM SERVICE MEL, YOU HAVE LEARNT YOUR LESSON(S) AND YOU MUST NOT SPEND A BOMB ON ROOM SERVICE!!) :P

haha check out this super GLAMOUROUS pigging-out pic!

ohh the worst thing’s that the hotel doesn’t provide that electric boiling kettle, so it’s either i go downstairs to the kitchen with my cup(s) or i call them for it
so i was damn lazy and i wanna nomnom asap so:

eat it like mamee! haha it’s damn good okay!

and then i ventured into the packeted ones.

i was kinda preparing for the worst because those in singapore are like plain, tasteless and WAXY before cooking! BUT I WAS DUPER PLEASED, THEY”RE SO DAMN GOODDDDDD. the ones i bought here are like, TASTIER THAN MAMEE!

tahdah

super unhealthy i know!!! no wonder i’m balding. LOL

random drinks:

bought different drinks to try each day
i’m not particularly picky about drinks, as long as they’re sweet i’m all good.
whenever i have savoury/salty food, i have to go with a sweet beverage (plain water sucks!) :P

anyways when my dad was like asking if i went alone (omg like he knows??) but i lied DUH lol. you know how DADs are, i don’t want him to worry for a skinnyboney little girl roaming around bangkok alone :P
he’s intending to travel soon too. i love my adventurous daddy :D

pfft. missed my flight.
i totally underestimated the efficiency level of the budget airline.
they totally closed the counter ON TIME dudeeeeee. i was only like 5 mins late or so. dang.
now i’m waiting for the next flight which’s at 10.50
way to go mel. you have a few hours to kill. can’t sleep lest i miss the flight AGAIN.

urgh.

with the total amount of money spent on those air tix/making of changes, its equivalent to an SQ ticket already. BOOHOOHOO.

and to think i could still be smiling eh

anyways i’ll be updating via twitter when i’m there so check that space out.

on a side note, how do i STOP twitter from automatically updating on my facebook?! i do not wish to flood my friends’ newsfeeds :/

i feel like revamping my room (again)

but i could do so much more with those money (like travel to more places)

dilemma.

but right now i’m spending all my money on food like $50 a day on average.

so whatever it is i’m just a friggin waste of money.

no wonder my mom hates me.

lili’s so cute here!

and i look so short there LOL

i was looking at the archives and came across this vid. dated JUNE 06 OMFG.
and that was BEFORE i had braces. (which seems like no friggin diff before and after -_- my teeth are still not 100% straight..)

and i can’t believe i’m so old now.
):

tagged by junhao in facebook (:

and i think the last picture was me scolding haidar for constantly taking pictures LOL (haha wasn’t really scolding lah just ranting :P was sooo nervous and couldn’t think straight!)

whom i meet only once a year, for barely 2 hours each visit. (lunar new year visiting)
this year, twice, only because i have to interview an old folk for a school project.
i truly am guilty, and ashamed.

random stuff i found out about her:
she is more easy-going than i thought she would be
she’s been hospitalized before, 5 years ago (and i didn’t even know)
she has many friends and loves hanging out
she speaks malay better than mandarin
she has to take lots of medication everyday to sustain her life
she goes to malaysia for short trips with her friends
she doesn’t miss her granddaughter (me) a lot or yearn to see me/spend time with me that much
she dotes on her grandsons a lot, probably because she takes care of them since forever
my mom’s the one who gives her a lot of money and offers to sponsor her if she wants to travel around
my mom takes her out to restaurants for meals occasionally

it was.. awkward. but i’m glad i visited her (always wanted to but didn’t) because afterall she’s my grandmother and she’s old and… well yeah.

0900 sms to aiman: seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden

and then… we decided to go later!

then samira & ruth were tempted to join us!

then together with aiman’s best friend, we attacked seoul garden (:

we were busy eating, so there ain’t much pictures :S

random facts:
seoul garden decides to save fishes by displaying them only at a later time when most people are filled up with cheaper foods and too full to gorge on fish. (ASSHOLES!)
samira seems like an awesome cook!!!!!! (lucky whoever who marries her in future!)
aiman’s stomach gets upset every time after he eats ice cream! (lactose intolerant? hope not!!)
we stayed from 1-5pm!
wanted to stay even longer but aiman has silat!
and when they wanted to leave i wasn’t done with my springrolls so OMG i smuggled them out to eat on my way back! (LOL!!)
mom brought me to carls junior after that!!
(and i still have space for more food :X)
i was so sleepy at the end of the day. like superrrrrrrrr.

i think i might have lost a kilo or two, by just rushing work at the last minute throughout the weekend.
and however heavy my eyelids, they can’t be any heavier than my eye bags.

(how many times have i yawned already….?????????)

here’s the amateurish crap that i did throughout the weekend (yeah the one i was doing in my nest)

i’m just disappointed that i didn’t spend much thoughts on it. and the fact that i can’t be bothered to use other materials but plain old vanguard sheets (i’m cheapo and lazy okay fine)

and guess how many tubes of UHU glue i’ve used on it!
4 friggin tubes. (i can’t believe it either.) so it totals up to $16 purely on glue.

hey glue sniffers, you should just quit and pass me some of your glue yo.

before bedtime, it’s rush-project-time.
(yeah i do my assignment in bed, so i can sleep right after or whenever i want to)
and yeah i’m wearing sleeping clothes. zero makeup (duh), and with my driller (i use it to drill holes in my cardboards because it’s faster)

how glamourouz. -_-”

where i wore so sloppyishly to,
where we were so bored,
where we wandered around and ended up sitting at this bench while waiting for everyone to be done,
where we were eyeing on those boxes of FOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD,
and where we camwhored:

the day,
started off badly with horrible attitude from the maid,
random cold war with my mom in the car to and fro,
received warning letter regarding attendance,
fucked up attitude from maid back home,
ate 5 freaking rice dumplings without even realizing it wasn’t real chicken filling i ate, but vegetarian filling (it tastes so damn REAL!),
okay that was really random LOL
but the day ended with a smile despite all that crap
because…
my dad opened his bag and gave me a bag of kit kat! (from his colleague TO ME!!!!!)
she said because i’m very skinny.
and that made my dad laugh while he said it.
how very cute.
AND KIT KAT WAS NICE (:

from junhao =D

me sleeping in my favorite mr ng’s class! LOL
tagged by lili in facebook!

gosh time flies

well we were bored during martin’s class!
plus the new photobooth effects amuses us. (: