melicacy

that no one touches.

DON’T EVEN LOOK AT IT………………. :D :D :D
THEY’RE ALL MINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..!!

whom i meet only once a year, for barely 2 hours each visit. (lunar new year visiting)
this year, twice, only because i have to interview an old folk for a school project.
i truly am guilty, and ashamed.

random stuff i found out about her:
she is more easy-going than i thought she would be
she’s been hospitalized before, 5 years ago (and i didn’t even know)
she has many friends and loves hanging out
she speaks malay better than mandarin
she has to take lots of medication everyday to sustain her life
she goes to malaysia for short trips with her friends
she doesn’t miss her granddaughter (me) a lot or yearn to see me/spend time with me that much
she dotes on her grandsons a lot, probably because she takes care of them since forever
my mom’s the one who gives her a lot of money and offers to sponsor her if she wants to travel around
my mom takes her out to restaurants for meals occasionally

it was.. awkward. but i’m glad i visited her (always wanted to but didn’t) because afterall she’s my grandmother and she’s old and… well yeah.

back to the junks way too early, no wonder i’m not getting a speedy recovery ):

this was lunch today

no chips for 3 days already ): no wonder i’m losing weight.
tea-time i tried eating crackers but this’s the first time ever i didn’t finish the entire packet ):
i finished 3/4 packet but with some difficulty. it’s tiring to crunch on just one side.

it’s father’s day and i really wanna eat some good food with my dad but ): ): ):

-i ruined my ibook. now it’s totally dead.
-i’m bruised again.
-i can’t stop hurting myself when the anxiety attacks kick in
-i can’t control myself anymore
-crying doesn’t help. i’m just getting myself more swelled up.
-i can’t stop hating myself
-i can’t stop hating everything
-i can’t stop..

I”M NOT GOING TO EAT SO LONG AS THERE IS SOMEONE OCCUPYING THE LIVING ROOM.

I NEED MY FRIGGIN SPACE.
I JUST WANNA EAT MY JUNK SO LET ME HAVE MY SPACE AND LET ME EAT IN PEACE.
ALONE.

why do people like to do things to prevent me from eating? am i that fat?! huh huh huh??

examples:
-not letting me have my comfort zone to eat in peace
-packeting food from my house parties, taking food away from me so i don’t have alot to eat?
(a clear example was when i was STILL EATING and people start packeting food home. INFRONT OF ME, EATING. WTF)
-asking me to share food (i’m not a friggin santa claus. go buy your own candies.)

i’m in the worst mood right now so F OFF EVERYONE.

0900 sms to aiman: seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden seoul garden

and then… we decided to go later!

then samira & ruth were tempted to join us!

then together with aiman’s best friend, we attacked seoul garden (:

we were busy eating, so there ain’t much pictures :S

random facts:
seoul garden decides to save fishes by displaying them only at a later time when most people are filled up with cheaper foods and too full to gorge on fish. (ASSHOLES!)
samira seems like an awesome cook!!!!!! (lucky whoever who marries her in future!)
aiman’s stomach gets upset every time after he eats ice cream! (lactose intolerant? hope not!!)
we stayed from 1-5pm!
wanted to stay even longer but aiman has silat!
and when they wanted to leave i wasn’t done with my springrolls so OMG i smuggled them out to eat on my way back! (LOL!!)
mom brought me to carls junior after that!!
(and i still have space for more food :X)
i was so sleepy at the end of the day. like superrrrrrrrr.

i think i might have lost a kilo or two, by just rushing work at the last minute throughout the weekend.
and however heavy my eyelids, they can’t be any heavier than my eye bags.

(how many times have i yawned already….?????????)

here’s the amateurish crap that i did throughout the weekend (yeah the one i was doing in my nest)

i’m just disappointed that i didn’t spend much thoughts on it. and the fact that i can’t be bothered to use other materials but plain old vanguard sheets (i’m cheapo and lazy okay fine)

and guess how many tubes of UHU glue i’ve used on it!
4 friggin tubes. (i can’t believe it either.) so it totals up to $16 purely on glue.

hey glue sniffers, you should just quit and pass me some of your glue yo.

i have blisters all over my hand from cutting stuff.

and i’m only 30% done with work :(

before bedtime, it’s rush-project-time.
(yeah i do my assignment in bed, so i can sleep right after or whenever i want to)
and yeah i’m wearing sleeping clothes. zero makeup (duh), and with my driller (i use it to drill holes in my cardboards because it’s faster)

how glamourouz. -_-”

where i wore so sloppyishly to,
where we were so bored,
where we wandered around and ended up sitting at this bench while waiting for everyone to be done,
where we were eyeing on those boxes of FOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDD,
and where we camwhored:

the day,
started off badly with horrible attitude from the maid,
random cold war with my mom in the car to and fro,
received warning letter regarding attendance,
fucked up attitude from maid back home,
ate 5 freaking rice dumplings without even realizing it wasn’t real chicken filling i ate, but vegetarian filling (it tastes so damn REAL!),
okay that was really random LOL
but the day ended with a smile despite all that crap
because…
my dad opened his bag and gave me a bag of kit kat! (from his colleague TO ME!!!!!)
she said because i’m very skinny.
and that made my dad laugh while he said it.
how very cute.
AND KIT KAT WAS NICE (: