melicacy

my childhood sweetheart!

been so many years since i had froot loops :P felt like a kid again!
so sweet but sooo divine!
warning: do not consume at night, causes hyper-activeness & insomnia due to high sugar content!

i’m soo addicted to nasi lemak, that’s my only motivation to go to school in the mornings! (the stall only sells nasi lemak in the mornings)
i usually just buy the nasi lemak rice with chilli at the side and fry my own ingredients at home :D eggs and chicken NOMNOMNOM~

food aside, i don’t like my seat in class at all ): it’s smacked right in the middle of the big classroom and i hate being in the middle. i want my own corner ): i’ve got no motivation to stay in class at all. but whatever. other than tues and fridays i don’t really have to be in school other than signing in and out at 9 and 5 everyday. but bp and i are helping each other to sign in and out :) so we take turns to go to school :) buying food’s the only motivation for me to go to school :S

mom’s out of singapore again. this time’s to hongkong i think? she didn’t even tell me where she went.
whatever.
stayed in bed the entire day today :S
don’t feel too well… gahh.

been wanting to buy KFC since the first day of internship because there’s this quaint little KFC outlet opposite, beside the hawker that i go to everyday.
today’s the last day of internship (omg i know right time flies!)
and i still haven’t had any KFC omg should i buy but i spent so much today already i don’t deserve to spend anymore on fast food omg thinkthinkthink

i went to ikea & cold storage just now :D
wanted to buy Bastis (a blackie cat furry friend) but i was gonna go to cold storage after ikea so i didn’t wanna carry Bastis everywhere.
i’m so gonna miss ikea after leaving this town, doubt i’d ever step foot in queenstown in the near future
i’m gonna miss all the hawker food & vendors

can’t wait to feast!!!!!!! can’t stop thinking about food already :D

i <3 fried noodles!
anyone has recipes to share?

love trying out different marinates, this way i can never get sick of chicken! <3 and i love potatoes sosososomuch <3

i <3 to cook many different flavored packets of instant noodles in a huge pot and nomnomnom the night away! super comfort food to the max! i cook the noodles till they’re reallllllllllyyyyy soft and soggy and drain the starchy water and add clean water again to boil and add the seasonings!

i bet my mom thinks i’m so outdated and socially disconnected that she decided to get an iphone for me :S
but really, i rarely use phones so i thought it was pretty unnecessary of her to get me a new phone but it certainly is serving me well
kept me occupied the entire day at work! i was slacking and downloading apps and playing games the entire day :X
i feel like jailbreaking it to download stuff that ain’t free but if i jailbreak it i won’t be able to download anything from itunes store? idk i’m still a noob, enlighten me if you would.

with the iphone i shall tweet more and post more pictorial updates!

my dad’s been buying birthday cakes every single year from bengawan solo EVER SINCE I WAS BORN its like a tradition already
i get it, its probably the “branded” cake shop in his era but after so many years obviously much better brands have been established and bengawan solo still remains as it was. i’m so sick and tired of bengawan solo birthday cakes they don’t even bother inventing new flavors its still the same old few. every year i get pissed off when they ask what cake i want because there isn’t much to choose from. and i HATE black forest cake, from anywhere/any shop. okay maybe i don’t hate it because i still love chocolate and whipped cream but i hate the combination of jam and cake.
next year i’m gonna be pissed off again because its still going to be bengawan solo I”M VERY CERTAIN ABOUT THIS. this is one reason why i hate birthdays. i even told my dad NOT to get me any cake yesterday when he asked what cake i wanted and i told him how sick and tired i am of their cakes. and that i hated black forest cakes.
BUT GUESS WHAT
HE STILL WENT TO BENGAWAN SOLO
but instead of the same few flavors he bought a “new” flavor that we haven’t tried before
-_-”

i just told him i didn’t want to cut the cake this year.

its mango and its not bad but i’d rather a cake from some place else. even a cheap cake from a neighborhood bakery like a normal chocolate sponge cake with tonnes of whipped cream would suffice.
i love cakes sooooo much i’m easily satisfied.
I JUST DON”T LIKE IT WHEN THEY CAN”T BE BOTHERED TO FIND OUT WHAT I REALLY LIKE AND THEN ASSUME THAT BENGAWAN SOLO IS THE BEST PLACE TO GET BIRTHDAY CAKES.

why can’t he just find out what i really want.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
I HATE BENGAWAN SOLO BIRTHDAY CAKES.
every single year they just have to piss me off during my birthday.

maybe that’s why i’m so full of hatred. because every single year during my birthday I”M FULL OF HATRED.

anyhows, i finished the entire cake at one go. idk if its due to my emotional eating or simply because i don’t want to be reminded of it and my birthday anymore

<3 food pornxxx :P

tried MARS BAR for the first time in my life. just felt like grabbing sth from 7-11 so i picked it up.

the ban mee that has the same texture as maggie mee

i asked my dad to buy me a double quarter pounder meal but he came with double cheese burger meal and claimed that nyp doesn’t have quarter pounder in their menu yet ): but o wells i like my good ol’ double cheese burger still :)

fried additional french fries <3

all time favorite nom nom!
i love my donuts with LOTS AND LOTS OF SUGAR!

and the only “flavored donuts” i like are chocolate coated ones.
I LOVE DONUTS!!!!!!

my first birthday present (:
loveeee it! <3
but most of all i really appreciate the thought of wanting to get me something.. so touched (:

her cheerfulness is contagious!
and even if i’m in the worse mood i’d always make sure i try my best not to affect her because i can’t afford to make her lose that smile (:

i think this friendship is the best birthday present already (: (:

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

the colleagues at other departments are sooo much nicer ):
everywhere else is better than where i am right now.

1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour 1 more hour

my boss was talking to another colleague asking to get some drawings done so he can get us INTERNS to work on it AT LOW COST.
was asked to “report” everyday before leaving the office and yesterday when i told him i’m going off he even asked if i can finish my work by friday (HINTING THAT I SHOULD OT TO MEET THE DEADLINE) when i already told him i can’t finish it because time was wasted getting autocad RE-INSTALLED. they should extend the deadline but instead, i was told we have to finish by 4pm today WHICH I TOTALLY WON”T ABIDE BY BECAUSE ITS NOT MY FRIGGIN FAULT TO BEGIN WITH.

i’m a pretty fast worker, whoever’s worked with me know i always get my stuff done quickly and over with.
now i’m taking my own bloody sweet time on purpose because whatever you’re paying us its been made full use of TOTALLY. and i don’t want to finish it early and you’ll think i’m idling because i have nothing to do and then pile on more work.
thank god its finally friday really.

on a lighter note, yesterday evening was spent slacking at a cozy area on another level (privileges of getting assigned to measure other levels, we can “disappear” and still be thought of as doing work :D)
that secret spot had a cozy couch and comfy huge pillow and peace and silence, away from the dreadful level 3 that we’re on :)

I”M GOING TO BE AS SLACK AS I CAN POSSIBLY BE.

7 more weeks.

woahhhh my first salary in… YEARS!
its a pathetic amount but whatever the pay is money is never enough anyway. LOL even if i get 5k its still never enough. so whatever amount doesnt matter.
just wana get this internship done and over with! (AND NEVER WANNA WORK IN THE NEAR FUTURE LIKE GIVE ME 5 YEARS TO RECOVER FROM THIS NIGHTMARE!)

2 more friggin months!!!!!
CAN”T WAIT.

the only stuffs that’re keeping me going: lili & FOOD!
other than that i can’t wait to get outta this hell

a baby german shepherd <3

ice cream maker

a new large fridge! :D Current one’s rotting.

rice/porridge cooker

deep fryer!
i always get burnt by oil splatters when i deep fry stuff in pans/woks ):

hand blender

garlic press

my own food processor to pulse flour & butter mixture into crumbly texture for making pastries <3

grill’d be nice :D

because i’m lazy to boil water just to steam something :X

omg so adorable!

lotsa chawanmushi! <3
omg i’m sooooo dying to go to a buffet!
shall celebrate when the internship’s over :D

the first outing after the internship is gonna be OUT IN THE NATURE
i’m gonna ask my mom to buy me new lens if i survive this internship.

and i’m not getting her anything for mothers day because she’s a horrible mother to me.
i won’t expect her to get me a birthday present either. since she buys me whatever i want even if there’s no occasion. just that i can’t ask for shitload of money for plastic surgery or stuff like that. my birthdays never did matter to her at all. o’wells.

white chocolate with coconut flakes
omg heavenlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

the cold’s making me angsty & irritable and i have no mood to do anything but stone & freeze.

i’m wearing 2 thick layers now and i’m still cold ):

brought my sheepy to work today but ain’t helping much with the cold ):

i just want today to be over like NOWWWWWWW
AND FRIDAY TO COME ):

i cried this morning before work when my mom TRIED to encourage/console me. (but failed of course, knowing the pessimist in me)
and i’m trying so hard to keep my tears in right now as i’m typing this ):
i hate being in this “outside world” where i have to consider the feelings of others and have people bossing me around. this internship’s making me abhor working life so much i’m scared shit to ever start working when i’m older.
and makes me feel like cooping myself at home even more on off-days, just to avoid facing the “outside world”
the only time i like going out is during breaks when we go out to buy food.

my mom tried consoling me saying that i don’t have to start work so quickly after schooling but i can’t avoid it forever???????? i’ll turn 30 soon ):
maybe when the time comes when i have to start work i’ll just commit suicide.

i’m super cynical & suicidal right now ):
i have tears on my sheepy.
hate being a crybaby but how does one control tears???? i really need to master that. i cry too easily ):

offended a colleague because of my blunt replies.
i guess anyone would be offended by the way i speak unless they understand my character :S

kept hurting myself when using the measuring tape

“scolded” by someone in charge of checking our work because i produced incomplete and slipshod work

black faces in the office esp from the boss (i’m sensing some hostility)

back at home,
burnt by oil splatters when frying chicken (again) second time in 2 weeks ):<

another weird ulcer under my tongue (2nd time this week)
it’s not the usual white-ish ulcer but its blood-ish. the previous one was in a bubble which i burst (LOTSA BLOOD) this time round its kinda flat but super uncomfortable and ain’t burstable (I TRIED) so it’s still here -_-”

when bad things happen they keep happening ):<

counting down again.
thank god its finally friday. but i don’t want monday to come ):

sigh why does labor day have to fall on a saturday ):

hokkien mee uncle’s closed thurs and fri, which means no hokkien for 4 days ):

bought wanton mee just now and aunty’s being super stingy about giving me more soup (LIKE WTF I”M NEVER PATRONIZING YOU EVER AGAIN)

tsk. i just flooded my twitter. maybe i just need a place to rant.

but i have a bad habit of deleting whatever i type so i’ve just deleted a whole page of rants here because i figure i don’t need the whole world to read about my pointless rants.

i can go on and on but i’ll just keep deleting them so..

fuck it this is a totally pointless post.

i’m just moody and angsty and cold and nasty and if my mom talks to me anytime soon i swear i’m gonna have a panic attack.
thank god she’s at the other side of singapore right now. but no thanks to god i’m at work.
i can’t wait for internship to be over. i hate my boss. i hate waking up early. i hate doing shit work.

okay before i delete everything again i’ll just publish this.

and add a picture to this senseless post reflecting my current state.

(update: 1pm)and a 5 min doodle because i didn’t feel like doing the assigned work & i was bored

(update: 3pm)

free fruits!

counting down: 3+ hours to go

(update: 5.30pm)
i’m not looking forward to tomorrow (onwards) because we have to move in to sit with the rest of the colleagues >:(
fucking ruined my mood. i’m gonna hate working even more now.
the aircon inside’s gonna be so much colder and the seats less comfy and with so many eyes watching there’s prolly less opportunity to slack.
(i just woke up from an hour’s nap btw :X)
hownowbrowncow i wanna think of excuses to move back :(((((((((((
i hate my boss i hate my boss i hate my boss.

this’s the first time i’ll ever say this word (HATE) about both of them because i thought i only hated my mom and i had the greatest dad but NO I DO NOT.
i don’t wanna type i hate my dad because i hate my mom more so i’ll just type parents and rant about my dad.
my dad’s hesitant about spending money on me. (OBVIOUS BECAUSE HE USED TO BUY MORE TIDBITS BUT NOW HE”S SCRIMPING ON GROCERY)
the other day he asked what i wanna do after graduation (PERHAPS HINTING WHAT I WANNA WORK AS) then i was like “huh so fast go out to work? of course i wanna continue studying first” then he’s like hesitant about sending me overseas because of the hefty fees then he said like “then gotta save up if you wanna go overseas” HINTING THAT MONEY”S DEPLETING LIKE SO FRIGGIN OBVIOUS
trying to make me feel like a burden and a waste of money.
I HATE THIS FEELING OF BEING A BURDEN AND DISAPPOINTMENT AND ALL THAT FUCKING SHIT.
fucking hell you know what, if i’m not gonna continue studying I”M NOT GONNA WORK AS WELL.
IF YOU HAVE MONEY TO SPEND ON YOUR FAVORITE DAUGHTER IN AUSTRALIA WHO”S NOW NEITHER STUDYING NOR WORKING THEN DON”T EXPECT ME TO WORK AFTER GRADUATING FROM POLY.

I HATE BEING POOR.
I HATE BEING IN A POOR FAMILY.
I HATE HAVING POOR PARENTS.

PERIOD.

monday bluesssss ):
counting down to friday once again..

shouting session with mom in the car this morning - bad start to a day ):<
well at least she gave me money automatically - that could appease my anger, well temporarily.
its soo soo hard to get along with anyone because i simply can’t control my emotions and candidness.
i dreamt of having a panic attack last night, i don’t know if its because i’ve been suppressing it, but i’m glad its only a dream.

on a side note, i’ve dreamt of like 4 different people i used to be interested in (BUT its all in the past i don’t like them anymore idk why i dreamt of them) and i dreamt of going to thailand during the chaotic protest and i dreamt that i lost my luggage with all my money & etc and i dreamt of a helpful thai blog reader helping me out
i’ve been having so many dreams lately. i don’t mind having more dreams even if it means bad dreams, because it means i’m sleeping more. i’ve been sleeping on an average of 5-6 hours on every working day and i’m totally deprived. but last weekend i slept 10 and 12 hrs (:

i’m being unusually talkative right now because i’m extremely bored at work (thank god for the internet)
last friday there wasn’t any new projects so i was idling the entire working day :D SUPER SHIOK. and i just got back my re-formatted macbook so i was installing applications and downloading games/icons the entire day :X SHIOKNESS.
but idling is really rare in this company because my miser boss wants to make use of us to the friggin max. so… that should be my fav workday ever

and we went to anchorpoint just now :D
the shoppaholics in us couldn’t resist buying stuff, and so we got ourselves new apparels from fox (:
then bought my usual nom noms & my favorite hokkien mee
i <3 uncle and uncle <3 me! he’s so adorable and he remembers my preferences like $4 w/o sotong and more meat <3

counting down religiously every single day/hour/week
now i’m counting down to 6.30pm and every monday i’ll count down to friday and i just can’t wait for 26 June to come ):
i dislike my miser boss.

bought this little thing @ ikea for only 0.90cents!! :P <3

slacking away as usual (whenever possible)

plus sides about working:
-workplace is like less than 10 mins walk to ikea <3
-awesome classmate attached to the same company :D
-hawker food here’s awesome! some stuff i always buy: curry puffs, mee siam, mee rebus, fried hokkien mee, fried oyster omelette, paus (buns), etc etc i look forward to buying food every single day! <3
-and my mom gives me more money ever since i started working :D

but the down sides… countless.

I TOTALLY HATE TRAFFIC JAMS. on a bad/rainy day, we’d take like an hour to drive back LIKE WTF RIGHT. it’s already far enough and the jam totally makes me hate the location even more.

work’s draining & sucking all that energy in me as i’m counting the days till the end of attachment - 26 June. ):
-counting down to 6.30pm everyday
-hoping that there’ll be no assignment given so i can slack the day away
-going out to buy food to get a break from the stressful environment
-hiding in the toilet & slack when the aircon’s freezing cold

now i’m extremely certain that i’m not ready for working life (and i don’t know when i’ll ever be)
i hate being asked to do work ): especially by colleagues around my age. basically i hate being asked to do stuff -_-” and if its not what they expect i’ve to re-do according to their preferences I”LL BE SUPER PISSEDDDDDDDDDD i guess i’m just too pampered but whatever.
and i hate to abide by the rules (but here its not so bad because there’s no fixed timing for lunch breaks, can go anytime just have to be back in about an hr)

i’m such a slacker ): i can’t relate to majority who’d rather be asked to do work, like they actually complain when they have no work to do -_-”
OMG i’d so rather stone the day away than be piled up with stuff to do ):
but i guess that’s just me

and i don’t like this company because my miser boss makes full use of us cheap labour and makes sure he gets his money well spent. if we finish our work he’d give us more work so we wouldn’t idle. we’re paid a miserable $460 and he still thinks we’re not doing enough to make his money well spent -_-” _|_

but i’m sooooo glad i’m not alone here, i don’t know how i’d survive without my classmate lili around with me!
26 JUNE, PLEASE COME SOONERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4 April Flyer ride

i need to just… calmFRIGGINdown.. *breathe in breathe out*
super prone to anxiety attacks nowadays.
partly due to the lack of sleep because i find myself more short-tempered with insufficient sleep.
but mostly because of stress. (or that i get stressed up real easily)

NEED To… CALM… DOWN..

i eat them straight from the packaging because if i pour them in a bowl of milk the milk washes away the sweetness in the cereal. i’d only eat them in milk if i add syrup into the milk :D DAMN DELICIOUS!

searched my archive and Oct 2007 was the last time i ever worked.
the thought of stepping into the real world again scares me more than anything. this time it might even jeopardize my studies.
i’ll be having my attachment, a 9-6.30 job, all the way at queenstown area. (super inconvenient and i’ve never been around that part of singapore other than going to ikea)
i hate the thought of meeting the requirements of others because with requirement comes disappointment(s).
i don’t know how i’m going to get along with my boss/colleagues because given my character, it’s tough.
i risk offending anyone along the way due to my bluntness and straightforwardness and i have this megaphobia about people disliking me (yet i don’t wanna do anything to make myself more likable because I AM ME. plus i hate sucking up.)

hownowbrowncow
5 April - 26 June, time please FLY like a rocket because i want it to be over already ):

the plus side’s that i won’t be joining the company alone, so hopefully things would turn out okay

idk which insect i hate most, can’t decide between ants and lizards but both are irksome.

hate the sneakiness of lizards and their croaks
hate ants because they always come in a fuckin troop.
urghhhhhh i ought to give the bugs some lovin’ because i love the nature but if they’d just get outta my house. GO TO THE WILD. my home’s not your home.

LOOKIN AT PICTURES OF BUGS LIKE THIS MAKES ME ITCH!

*shiver shiver*
but it wasn’t moving when i was photographing it (thank god) because i had to go really really close (almost touching :P)

my dad spotted it btw!

so yeap, finally got my ass to the singapore botanic gardens :P
past few weeks’ve been raining so plans were cancelled.
was supposed to go to the bird park this week tho, but my dad forgot to collect the free passes so we gave it a miss (:

i haven’t been updating because i was sooo lazy to upload pictures from my cameras, so when i do upload them, i’ll update like MAD. (:

Suki Sushi Buffet TOTALLY AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE. student price: $22.35 per pax :P BUFFET HOURS ARE 12pm-5.30pm HOW AWESOME IS THAT.
hongwen was late so we started from 1pm :P ate all the way till time’s up! TOTALLY WORTH OUR MONEY :D :D

(i always look sleepy after eating :P hongwen feels sleepy after eating too actually!)

and was pleasantly surprised when they had cakes on the belt!!!!! GRABBED THEM IMMEDIATELY OMG THEY”RE SO DAMN GOOD. cheesecake & coffee cake with chocolate (i ain’t a fan of coffee, in fact i hate coffee, BUT I LOVE CAKES TOO MUCH TO RESIST! plus there’s chocolate :P)

and some of the other stuff we ordered :P
was too busy eating so i mainly took pictures of my fav stuffs that i keep ordering :D :D

didn’t manage to get a pic of my fav RAMEN! and hongwen’s soba (the serving was huge!)
OH and the TAKO YAKI BALLS! my first time eating octopus and it was GOOD! (a tad salty tho!)

i’m not that huge a sushi fan, so i only had egg mayo sushi, tuna mayo, sashimi and unagi(eel)
i hate seaweed tho! i always peel off the seaweed before i eat the sushi :D

omg after uploading the pics i feel like going again.
ANYONEEEEEE???? (but must be able to stay from 12-5pm :P some people “die” after 1 hour.. lousyyyy! :P)

right now.

but i’m not
but maybe i need to.

never liked nuts, in fact i’ve always hated nuts

but recently chocolate made it okay for me to eat nuts :)

it’s weird how i’m eating stuff that i used to hate, for example i hated garlic but now i’m cooking garlic chicken. chicken made it okay to eat garlic :P but i have to cook the garlic till it softens or else the crunchiness still makes garlic gross :P

but stuff that i’ve ALWAYS HATED AND STILL HATE:

CELERY AND GINGER
these 2 are my MOST HATED NON-TOUCHABLE stuff!

call me paranoid but here’s what happened!
usually my dad comes home 7-ish 8-ish latest 9 everyday when i’m watching tv in the living room.
so yesterday was friday, he’d usually come home earlier on fridays like 7-ish maybe?
then when it was 9, he wasn’t back, i started to worry like why didn’t he mention he’s not coming back late! because usually if he has something on he’d let me know not to leave any dinner for him.
every single time i hear the sound of keys/gate outside i’d think that it’s him
so finally he came back at 12-ish
so he went for some wine with his friends
anyway i told him my maid cooked chicken leg. i know that he loves it so i didn’t eat any :)